When you have to ask other people to pick up things you have dropped in a store, when you can't do things that your formally did, when your body does not work like it use to it can be a very humbling experience. I never thought those things would describe me or my experiences, but they do. Because they do I have found a very different way of Being.
In my past life I was very independent and I still have that in my spirit, but now I am truly forced into a very different way of being me. In recently spending time with a person at work who also had a "Life Altering" accident I have found that what I am feeling is very valid. Sometimes you wonder. I have no reference points, my gosh I had never been over night in a hospital before this.
How will this affect me I wonder? Will I always feel different or will it slowly go away? I know now that some things physically will always be there and silly me thought that they would put me back together and I would just get up and walk out of there. Naive is how I choose to look at it, but those who know me would say naive I am not. Maybe I was just trying to be optimistic or hopeful.
So the new me is slower and more deliberate. I am definitely more aware and compassionate towards others who may be in the same place that I am. I guess what that means is my ability to display empathy has been made more clearly available. I feel more calm and patient because why sweat it? I have had to wait 12 weeks to no longer be contained in this brace so I can wait for anything, right! There are other things more important in life than those things I had thought were important before. My focus has been forever changed. So what is really important in this life I am living? Well, I am still working that out, but I can assure you that what was before is not going forward...........